I did it! I listened to my heart, and got my boy backkk. <3 I know— i complained, I cried, I second guessed. I guesss some bad has to come with alll good things. I’ve been sick ALLL week— and waking up knowing that i have the love of my life is backk, made me feel so much better. I’m taking the risk, and as long as it’s with him, i’m willing to do ANYTHING to make this relationship work. I need to quit bein’ such a bratttybrat & realise that what I have, is better than anything in this whole world. Being “inlove” is NOT something everyone gets to expierence. I’m very lucky. <3
A good friend told me
falling out of love, is just as easy as falling IN love. I wanted to believe it, and I wanted to see it for myself. I’ve learned that you cannot MAKE yourself fall out of love, and I think that trying to do so.. has only made things harder for me. How can something that was soooo great for close to a YEAR just all the sudden turn to SHIT? I know all the things we’d both blame it on, but those are just sad excuses. When really I think its because we’re both scared. Fuck the age factor, fuck your parents, fuck what your friends say. I could confess my love to you but really.. would that even do anything? I’ve told you so many times before. And its me who is constanly drifting away, and changing my mind and thats why we’re HERE. My heart and my head are constantly battling against what is RIGHT and i’ve been listening to my head because I feel like thats what every “smart” girl does. But i’m changing.. and i’m listening to my heart. It has never failed me before. & I dont know why I’ve ever doubted it. The one person who owns my heart is going to have it, and they’re going to keep it forever. because I SAID SO. I’m getting it back. I’m never forgetting. I cannot. It’s not as simple as it may seem. MAYBE BECAUSE THIS IS REAL. Fuck you all.<3333
Okay so, it might be true. I really might have a really bad case of adhd because all day during class I look at the most ramdom stuff online. Anyway.. I found this picture a few weeks ago— & i love it. I want a fisheye lense soooo bad. I remember billy and I just fucked with his camera lense untill it was a fisheye, <33 hahaha. miss those dayyzzz.
unfortunately
i’ve realised that i’m always going to suck @ life.
paying fines,being sick,loss of apetite,work tonight. WHAT ELSE? seriously.
YOUUU SHOULD FUCK OFF.
